Heartbreak Kid : By Camille Smith

Look into my eyes and tell me what me what you see.. 

Do you see my desires , my hopes and my dreams?

Do you recognize a woman who is full of love and compassion..

Who will do anything for her man?

Who provide comfort and a shoulder to lean..

Or do you just see my big titties and the fat ass in my jeans  ?😒

When I'm talking to you do you even hear what I'm saying ?

Do you understand the feelings that I'm relaying..

Everything is a game to you..

why you always playing?

I do too much for you..

Jumping high and in between 

Just trying to be seen .

Packing my face with make up ..

Hurrying to the bathroom to fix myself before you wake up..

Shopping at the mall..

Buying pants two sizes too small..

All of this in hopes that you aren't like the last guy..

The one that broke my heart..

Damn .. I know how it ends.. But why does it start?

Why lie and connive to get something so precious to me..

Something you don't deserve ..

You work so hard to strip me of my worth.. When all it would take is for you to get to know me..

If you put half the effort you put into getting my pussy..

You might just realize that you like me !

This is why I'm lonely .

Cause no nigga out here is trying to own me..

To be my everything 

And satisfy my every need .

Selfish.. He's in it for himself ...

I got fucked over twice ..

& ever since then my heart has turned to ice .

It's cold .. 

Unfortunately I don't see myself opening up with someone and growing old...

At least no time soon..

The fear I'm carrying is a deep and still opened wound ..

Sometimes I wish I could outcast myself to the moon and write stories about outer space ..

What a waste. A waste of love that could be given to someone worth it..

To me.. None of y'all will ever deserve it.. But that's cause at this point you'd have to be perfect for me to even consider changing my ways.. 

But what's fucked up is that there's no such thing..

No such thing as perfect .