That spot .

That spot ;

I still have that spot for you .

You know , the one that's on my lips.

The one you hit the first time we ever kissed.

& it wasn't expected , because I wasn't sure if you wanted too.

But when you did it , I think that that was the moment that I wanted to give my all to you .

I still have that spot for you.

You know the one on my neck?

The one that you kissed the first time we had sex.

& I was drunk and nervous, but I knew what I was doing .

I knew that I wanted you to be exactly where you were .

I still have that spot for you. 

The one in my spirit .

The one that jumps and makes me want to giggle every time some one says your name and I hear it .

The one you put inside of me , when we went to the movies.

I remember cause I never had someone hold me the way you did .

You weren't hesitant at all, you took the lead .

In terms of affection , you gave me everything that you knew I would need .

I still have that spot for you .

The one that put a smile on my face.

When you walked Into the lions den that night to meet my daddy and all of his friends.

I was afraid to leave you out there , I didn't know what to do . You surprised me , you even made my king like you. I think it was in that moment that I fell in love with you.

I still have that spot for you .

The one in my heart .

The heart that I wanted so badly to give to you but everything fell apart.

I could've been everything to you , cause you were perfection .

Looking at you was like seeing my own reflection .

But you weren't mine to keep .

I think that you were my karma for the bad things I've done .

With you I had so much fun 

We made so many memories and I planned on making more.

Then just as I began to plan , karma had the last laugh .

Now I can't find anyone that makes me feel like you .

I can't find anyone that's real like you .

I can't find anyone that knows me like you .

You gave me the confidence that I never had

The sexiness that I lacked 

You showed me everything that I didn't think I would find in your smile.

You were a lesson , I think that's why you could only stay for just a while .

But how can I find someone 

When I never fell out of love with you? 😔

It's cause I still have that spot for you.

The one that will never go away . 

No matter how hard I try to forget you , I always know you're still there.

Ill always have that spot for you .. It's not fair 😔. 

- Camille Denine 

Exhale .

At first it's like a dagger piercing your skin.

Unbearable pain leaving you in a blank state .

Anger resentment revenge and hate

Are the only feelings you can muster .

When the thought of your person being someone else's person begins to eat you alive .

It hurts

Your burning up inside . 

Cupid shot his arrow ..

It was long & narrow 

Precisely so that he will never miss .

He knew exactly when to do it ..

When you were caught slipping leaving the house without your bullet proof vest..

You were shot 

A wide open wound has been left in your chest .

What now ?

Stitches . Look at your stitches . 

A constant reminder to exhale and let go

To move on and let love live & stop the tears from their flow 

Like the Nile river

They stream down your face 

Showing your weakness don't let them see it .

Eeexxxhhaaaalllleeee 💨.

- Camille Denine . 📝💞

Imperfectly Perfect.

My naked body is my honest truth .

I can hide it

 &

Shower myself in clothes that are new 

But nothing changes underneath .

My tummy is still chubby 

My breast are still a size 38DD 

My thighs are still thick 

My tattoo on the back if my right shoulder still sits 

& the words on my collarbone still send whispers to my ears 

When my mind provokes stressful thoughts & bring salty tears . 

Exhale & let go .

Release the pent up frustrations from the secrets I hold..

 The ones no one will ever know.

My hair is still my own ..

Dark brown 

Thick & healthy

Medium in length ..

Frayed ends but 

Full in strength .

My nose still big ..

& my lips still pink ..

My butt is still rounded & sits up in tight jeans . 

My arms won't let me fit a small sized tee ..

Sometimes not even a large 

Cause I can't fit the sleeves .

My shoes are still a size 10..

Yes, I have big feet ..

I wasn't built for small sizes that are dainty & petit .

I was built big , because the contents of me are so creative , loving , amazing & great..

That it would be impossible to stuff it all into a tiny size 8 !

I am a lot of woman , because I deserve a HELL of a man .

I am big , because I am beautiful ❤️👊😉. 

-Camille Denine 

Note to self . By : Camille Denine

Hey there pretty girl..

Looking at yourself in the mirror ?

The reflections of the tears you've cried & the dirt you've done couldn't be any clearer .

Covered in all of your sins 

You forget that you are human ..

& carry the weight of the world on your back.

The world is mean and cruel and full of people who attack like wolves

& they are looking at you like you are a snack.

Pretty girl , 

This is not his fault .

Blaming everything on that man 

Won't bring him back .

It won't make him treat you any better .

It won't erase your past.

It won't make the simple things that are supposed to move slow, move fast.

Do you know what you are worth?

You claim that you do 

But how can that be the truth ?

You know what your problems are ..

But have you found the root?

Because in the end you are always

 hurt .

You claim that no one puts you first..

But let's start with you .

How do you make yourself feel?

If you don't acknowledge the problem , pretty girl, how will you heal?

No one can fix what's broken inside of you.

Not even the new boy you have standing beside you .

Stop and pay attention to the little girl hiding behind you ..

She's running around in circles trying to find you ..

She is lost..

But even she can tell who's lying to who.

It's you .

You are the answer to finding yourself ..

Pretty girl .

You are the answer .

- Camille Denine .